Never thought my life would change so soon.

Of course, when we made the decision to TTC, we both knew that it would change our lives forever. Bringing a baby into the world is the biggest decision/accomplishment of either of our lives, and we couldn't be any happier than to be expecting our first child.
But who knew that things would be turned upside down so soon!
I expected some little things to change right away - eating habits, drinking habits, sleeping habits, goals for our future, home remodeling, saving money like mad, waist size, breast size.. those sorts of things. I worried about how things would change once the baby arrived.. financially, with my job, with our relationships with friends and family, etc.
One thing I never expected, though, was for all these things to change right away.
We haven't even had our first ultrasound yet, and already I feel like the rug has been jerked out from under me when it comes to my job.
Of course nobody ever plans on getting as sick as I did last week.. and there's no way to know thats coming. So when I had to miss a full week of work, my bosses' lives were sort of shaken up a bit (a lot!). Suddenly they were in a position where they had no childcare and each had their own, equally important obligations that needed to be met at work. In the 6 years I've worked with this family, I have never had to unexpectedly miss more than a day or two at a time. 2 days they can manage without me.. a week was hell... especially since I had the extra car seats in my car! So, by Friday they had enlisted the help of a friend to watch the girls, and who would have guessed.. Friday my boss (the daddy) was rushed to the heart hospital in an ambulance. He did not have a heart attack, thank God, but they called it a "cardiac event". He had one set of car seats and I had the other.. so when he was taken to the hospital, the mama then had to rush out to buy a new set of seats (the 5th and 6th car seats for the twins!) and rush around town trying to gather her children, all the while wishing she could be at her husband's side.
Talk about guilt!!! I felt AWFUL that I couldn't be there to help with the kids so she could be with her husband. I felt awful that I had unintentionally made the situation even more complicated/expensive by having the car seats. I felt awful that I had put them in such a bind all week, and I hoped beyond hope that the stress of my absence did not play a role in his "cardiac event". Ugh.
Anywho, after that week, the 2 of them sat down and discusses what to do in future situations that may arise should I get sick again, should I have any complications later in the pregnancy (knock on wood), for the days I'll miss work for OB appts, etc. What they decided was to enroll the twins full time in preschool, but only put them in part time (PT enrollment isn't offered). So, the new routine is for the twins to be dropped off at preschool after Big Sis is dropped off at Kinder. They spend the morning there, eat lunch, nap, and then I pick them up and take them home. Together, the girls and I pick up Big Sis, and I have all 3 sisters until after dinner and bathtime.
I'm not excited about the paycut (there go our ambitious savings goals!) and I'm emotional about the idea of the twins being cared for by someone who isn't me... but all in all, I am grateful.
They could have easily (and more affordably, is that a word?) put them in preschool FT and left me to find a new job entirely. But they graciously offered me the PT position and made it very clear that they want to work out some way of me staying with them, in some capacity, for as long as possible. I am also grateful because mornings are still very rough for me.. I usually wake up and have a good hour of terrible nausea/vomiting before I can really get moving. So being able to take my mornings at my own pace is invaluable right now!!
Its still hard for me to wrap my mind around though, that things have already started changing so drastically.. before we've even had a peek at our bean.
Crazy.