Next Month

While we were laying in bed this morning putting off actually getting up and getting ready, Andy and I got to talking about Baby Girl (she is most often the topic of conversation these days!). 

You know what we realized? There is a good chance we will meet our Baby Girl next month. 

Did you hear that? 

Let it sink in a minute.... 

Next Month. 

We may be holding our sweet Camy Lou next month.

That thought is exhilarating, in both an exciting and a terrifying way.

Our lives are about to change forever. 

We have wanted this for so long.

For years we talked about when we would start our family, and as we checked off all the tasks on our Pre-TTC To-Do List one-by-one, we became more and more eager to get things moving along. 

We prayed for an easy TTC journey and in some respects it was easy, but there were many times along our 8 month ride that we wondered why things were happening the way they were, why things weren't easier for us.

Then all the ups and downs of that TTC roller coaster became more than worth it on Christmas night when we saw those 2 pink lines. 

That test was all we had been waiting for and we were over the moon at our blessed fortune, we were finally able to exclaim "We're having a BABY!"

That seems like it happened so long ago, but at the same time it feels like the last 27 weeks since that glorious day have flown by. 

We have known about our sweet baby for 27 weeks today.

We have celebrated every little milestone with her growth and development. We have joyously shared every bit of news we've received about her with our loved ones.  We have lovingly prepared a room for her in our home. We have prayed for her good health. We have counted down the days to her arrival. We have worried over whether we are well equipped to parent her and whether we can provide her with all the things she deserves in her life. 

The last 27 weeks have presented us with more joys than we could have imagined, and more obstacles than we could have imagined.

We have spent many days grinning ear to ear talking about our future with our baby, and many days crying over the cards we've been dealt since we learned of her existence. 

Through all the ways our faith and resolve has been tested on this 27 week journey, one thing has remained constant. 

This baby is the answer to the prayers we've been sending up for the last 4 years. 

We love this baby more now than we ever thought we were capable of, and that love for her grows everyday. 

And that is all that matters. 

So as much as we may have to stress and worry about in these last 9 weeks (or less) before her arrival, we will continue to remind ourselves that she is our sweet little blessing, we love her with every bit of ourselves now and always will -- and that is all that is important.

We may not be able to provide for her in the ways we anticipated, we may be worrying about our finances and our jobs and our home for a long while, but this child will never be lacking for love. 

As long as we remember that, we will be okay.