Glass Half-Empty...

....and for now, I like it that way.

Like I said in the first post, this cycle is our first full-fledged charting cycle. I have been diligently recording every twitch, temp change, CF change, headache, etc I can detect.. and I feel good having done so well with it so far. I worried about "getting into a routine" with this charting business, but its been a piece of cake. Hooray.
However, raining on my own parade, I am trying not to get my hopes up this cycle because outside influences may very well hurt our chances this go-round.
For one, we will be traveling and staying with friends the very day(s) I am projected to ovulate. Damn it! I have been so looking forward to this trip, and although I did consider postponing it when I saw that little egg pop on my FF calendar, I decided it would be best to stick to our original plans. I always enjoy our time with the J family, and this weekend will be no different. I need this time with my very best friend, and I won't let Fertility Friend talk me out of traveling!
But on top of that, I have been more stressed the last week or two than I ever remember being. I can usually snap myself out of a funk fairly quickly, but this particular rut has been hard to dig myself out of. Here's the evil catch-22: I know stress can delay ovulation, which stresses me out even more. I don't want to knock my cycle all out of whack - so I am trying to find new ways of dealing with my anxieties, let's hope one (or some) will work. Soon.

So.. knowing that travel and stress can wreak havoc on the whole TTC process, I am not getting my heart set on a BFP this month. Of course, we will still try 110% and always have that bit of hope on our minds and in our heart.. but no early testing this time, no waking up everyday analyzing every feeling as a potential pg symptom - we'll just wait and see what happens.

Despite these potential setbacks, please happen.