That makes tomorrow 10dpo.
I'm itching itching to test, but I promised my husband we would wait to test until Christmas night (so as to avoid the same kind of heartbreak that ruined Thanksgiving should we get a BFN).
I don't know if I can keep my promise.
I think I am going to tell him to hide all my tests, because I seriously cannot be trusted.
I want to know so bad!
And I have all these crazy little things making me think I just have to be KU.
For instance, I cried this morning hearing that Taylor Swift Romeo & Juliet, Love Story whatever song. I mean, come on! I have heard that song 3945756 times and never so much as teared up. Today, cried. With tears.
Ok, so I know - crying at a cute song on the radio is not a strong (or even a weak) indicator of pregnancy.. but just let me dream, ok?
A keeps reminding me to not get my hopes up - and I just keep reminding him that as long as we are trying to get pregnant, my hopes will always be up. I will always be hopeful. Yes, some days I am exceptionally bitter and depressed - but still, there is always a little hope tucked away somewhere. How could there not be? When we want something so badly, and are doing everything in our power to get it - how could I not get my hopes up? But, I do love the fact that he is trying to guard me from the part when I come crashing back down to reality after only seeing one line.
There will be 2 lines this time. I am hopeful.
I am all kinds of fidgety today, and my mind is racing around the idea that I could, if we were testing tomorrow, I could find out we are with-child. In less than 24 hrs, our lives could change. But they won't.. because I promised I'd wait. Dang it!!
Hopefully once my sister is in town with us, I will be so distracted with all our festivities and her 3 big, crazy dogs that I won't think about testing every.single.second. But, something tells me I will see her cute little 16 week belly and want to test that much more!
Oh my stars.. this is torture.
3 comments:
haha--that IS torturous!
GL waiting--just think, whether you are or aren't, waiting those extra two days will give you two more days of exciting, agonizing hope!
I'm hoping the tears were a sign!
FXFXFXFXFX for you!!! I am hoping beyond hope that this is really it for you guys.
I am a little afraid to say it because I don't want to get your hopes up too much more than they already are, but this post from you is the most self-assured, positive, hopeful attitude about your impending results that I've heard you express in a long time. I really hope that means something good!!!
I agree with K on the tone of this post. I am pulling so hard for you guys this cycle (well, every cycle, but a Christmas BFP would be so wonderful!)
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