My Own Weekend Update

**Disclaimer: After re-reading this post, I noticed it bounces all over the place, bear with me!**

Its strange to get on here on a Monday morning and not have a baby-related update to post. Strange, and a little sad.

We are still struggling to be at peace with postponing TTC, so we were sure to keep ourselves busy this weekend in hopes of distracting our minds/hearts from the reality of the situation.

And busy we were!

A new Hobby Lobby opened close to our home, so we hit up their Grand Opening 50% Off Just About Everything Sale (our name, not theirs). We went a little crazy and got all sorts of things to finally, officially, decorate our master bedroom and bathroom. I love the way everything turned out, and I love that it finally (after 10 months) looks like a room that belongs to 2 adults, and not an empty, boring jail-cell-esque place. We already had a few key decor elements that we received as gifts for our wedding, but hadn't completed the whole scheme until yesterday. I am very proud of us, and very grateful that Andy was so patient with me throughout the process. Poor guy just wanted to watch a little football, but I was on a mission to get it all done, right then and there.

Yesterday afternoon, being a Sunday, was spent at Andy's parents' home for lunch and a little visiting with the family. His sister is 21 weeks pregnant, and just found out last week she is having a boy (yay!). She was itching to go get her registry started at Babies R Us and invited me and my other SIL along. Of course we went along, but before we even arrived at the store I was already regretting it. Why in the HELL did I think I would be okay walking through a BABY STORE with a woman registering for her first child (who conceived without even TRYING on/very near our wedding date, aka when we started TTC)? Seriously? What in the hell was I thinking??

I would normally be thrilled to tag along on a trip like that, and flattered that she wanted/trusted my opinion on different products - but yesterday was not fun for me. Of course, the question was asked, and all I could say was "We'll be happy when it happens for us, but we aren't focused on that right now." Ugh. I never did understand how risky a question like that could be, until I was on this side of the question mark. I will never again ask anybody about what their baby plans are. Its one thing when someone who I've told about TTC asks, or someone who I know didn't get KU just by looking at their husband - but when 2 fertile turtles who have no idea what its like to want and try and fail at getting pregnant ask me IN A BABY STORE, it makes me want to cry and vomit at the same time. Luckily I didn't do either.. I just lied.

The hubby and I talked about our short-term future yet again last night, and we are going to do our very best to look forward to the Holidays this year, despite the crappy hand we've been dealt. We plan on keeping ourselves very busy until January. Lots of work on the house, remodeling the backyard, getting the new TV Andy has had his eye on, taking a weekend trip just the two of us.. we are determined to enjoy the next 2 1/2 months and SO EXCITED to ring in the New Year that will hopefully hold our happy ending. We are going to help each other not dwell on the unfortunate turn of events of the last month - just do what we gotta do, and move on with a smile. What else is there for us to do, really? We just have to smile.